Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Sunday, March 29, 2009

A new diagnosis

Bipolar II with Delusions. Never would have guessed that. But I do have delusions, but they just seem so insignificant to me--I believe that you can inhale calories. I believe that sitting on the same toilet seat that a fat person sat on can make you fat. Being around fat people. I believe that food is inherently evil.

And the Abilify, I think, is starting to have some side effects. And that is why I am so jittery.

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Anything but Thrilled

So, a lot of little thoughts, with my general obsessive tendency, have been swarming upon me. Weight, human adequacy, meds, sickness, happiness, contentedness, the future, the past, the present. It is rather overwhelming and drains me emotionally and mentally. And it results in a psychic tornado that I cannot control.

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

It's really weird how large my range of emotions is in a single day.

Monday, March 2, 2009

Does it occur to anyone else that uncertainty is one of the biggest emotional factors in life?