So, the hardest lesson for me:
Trust other people. Not just the T or N, trust other people to see the world correctly. For me, recovery is learning to trust what other people tell me about who I am and who I can be. If other people tell me I am sick, they are probably right. I'm probably wrong because I don't see the world as it really exists. If other people tell me I can go do X, I probably can. Trust the people who care about you. Learning to stop fighting with these people and start trusting them was one of the hardest lessons I had to learn.

I am more than habit. A professor told me this. Retreating to Ed because of habit is not acceptable. I can choose otherwise every time. That choice might not be comfortable or easy, but it is a choice. And chances are that I will be fine every time I make the choice to defy habit.