Monday, February 18, 2008
Loneliness
I am convinced that loneliness is the single most damning cause of human misery. Loneliness draws a person inward and focuses their attention on themselves. Loneliness causes a person to stop moving toward any goal. They get stuck. Loneliness is an achingly empty feeling. People don't do particularly well under conditions of un-relationship. They get lost in their own minds, tangled in emotions that aren't as overwhelming as they might seem.
Monday, February 11, 2008
I don't like to be morbid about my eating disorder. It reminds me too much of when I was really, really depressed. But for any of you who may have forgotten the cost of eating disorders, here's something at which to look: http://www.something-fishy.org/memorial/memorial.php
Friday, February 8, 2008
What I learned about humans from an eating disorder
Not to mention gads of other mental illnesses.
- Most people aren't happy. Hell, they are lonely, sad, insecure and miserable. Mental illness is everybody else on steroids.
- People want to avoid risk.
- People don't want to be different, wrong, or "out of place."
- People want to know, desperately, who they "really" are.
- People are egoistically focused. Looking outside themselves is HARD. Looking outside, decentering, is SO important to living a wonderful life.
- The world isn't a happy place; sadness is hyperabundent. The theodicy problem is the single most damaging aspect of religion. Shut up arguments are easy and prevelant and very comforting.
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
Why I am going to continue to be a perfectionist.
Because I have no reason to do otherwise. I mean, really, why would I stop striving for perfection?
Sunday, February 3, 2008
I don't know why
But I am really anxious right now. Shaking. Stomach in knots. I don't know quite why. There are the normal issues--lacking in productivity, didn't see my horse today, et al. But in some sense, there is a lot more going on than that. Something biological too I think.
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